To the one, my heart beats for.......
I sit by the open window staring at the sky,
It seems an open stage with darkness all around.
Dark clouds awaiting the dark rains.
My dark heart to the core is filled with pain.
Filled with loneliness and the longing for love.
Take away with you, Oh blowing wind,
my words.
Take away with you, Oh falling rain,
my songs.
Take away with you, Oh flying leaves,
my spirit.
To distant lands where lives my heart.
Take me away one thousand miles,
where lives my love.
Still with such longing, I close the window,
I draw the curtains and the secret chambers.
A year later,
A phone call, the words- 'I am here',
Picked me up from the red chair, I sat on.
The restless breadth and the words- 'Just wait',
The big moment seemed to have come.
I knew a long weary walk awaited,
Endless steps and an endless walk that could,
reach me to the moon.
I had to walk some miles, and then others after that.
I, in deep red that day just by chance,
started from the start.
A blank point alone, filled with
thoughts, hope and happiness.
The mind flashed memories, the dates passed by, the faces flew past.
Yet, the word I could only embrace was- 'Atlast'!
The heart filled with happiness, suddenly
Made way to fear,
Only because it remembered how years had gone by,
How the mind had been washed clean of faces,
Faces so bright, so filled with love.
Alas! It could not memorize a part!
I was mid-way thinking, of sad times,
Times, I sat besides the open window,
Crying out to the rains,
To take me away to where my heart lived.
Today I need not have flown with the winds to a magical land.
Today, magic was all around,
In the air, in the soil, on the road I walked on.
The heart did thump, rather banged and cheered.
It just wanted a glimpse of the person most dear.
The walk ended, the heart beat fastened.
The eyes could see huge buildings, a lonely scene void of anything,
The ears could hear nothing other than,
Birds chirping, trucks rolling, people screaming and the noise of the phone.
Yes! The same noise that had filled me with passionate delight,
whenever it danced in my ears.
Over the years, over the days, throughout my childhood,
Yes, I have grown up so much since then,
Yes, I am a lovely lady now, the lady of her love!
The eyes opened and it saw a sight,
A sight, I had almost died to get a glimpse of,
The sight I went to heaven in search of,
A sight so tall, so dark, so white!
Yes! Finally! It was the sight!
I was a statue, hardly breathing.
Those hands came and hugged me, embracing.
The mind flashed back memories, of how,
I once sat besides the window pane,
Longing for the love, laughter and embrace.
I would have stood there still, loving and laughing,
Looking at the sight so dear forever.
Now we walked side by side, hand in hand, heart in heart,
How we were one atlast!!
Bringing back, reaching the destination,
I found it was a window, a bed, a room,
The same window pane, I sat besides,
On a rainy day alone, a year back, crying for love,
Sending the winds, the rains and the leaves,
To fetch the one I loved.
They did their part perhaps, they kept their promise alas!
You are my life now and I am yours.
People say- 'You cant catch clouds, feel stars, smell winds.'
I could as I lay in your arms with,
My lips on yours, hearing your heartbeat,
So loud and clear, hearing your breadth,
That ran for me.
The moments passed away like dewdrops do,
On early winter mornings, like the moon does,
Every fortnight, like the sun does every dusk.
Just the way darkness gives way to light,
I lay there, in your arms, kissing you with all my might,
Like the birds embrace dawn and the fish embrace water.
They call them theirs,
I call you mine!
Months pass and this afternoon, I sit here in darkness.
And its hard to hold a candle in the cold November rain.
Yes, its raining once more as I sit besides the window pane today,
The same window pane I had cried on,
The same window pane that had washed away every single tear of mine.
The sky again, an open stage, so dark, so clear, so filled with rain.
But today apart from,
The blowing wind and falling rain and flying leaves,
I also see floating angels, flying demons, mighty dragons and dead spirits.
I see them dancing in the open sky!
The heart should fear and call you closer.
Instead all the heart does is silently cry,
Tears of happiness all along the way,
But I blow them away today,
Ten thousand droplets of tears and another,
Ten thousand gallons of love, here I send today,
Asking the rain to bring it all the way,
Ten thousand miles away,
To where lives my heart,
To where lives my life,
To where you live.
The windows will forever remain open now,
The curtains will never close.
Each time the sky darkens and prepares a new show.
I will be sitting and gazing with open eyes.
The magic of the angels and the dance of the demons,
The floating of the rain clouds.
Will take me away like every time,
To where you breathe, live and sleep,
